Feeling ignored
I been feeling really ignored lately.
I used to think I had good friends and people in my life, but now it seems they don’t care.
I rarely get phone calls from people anymore, and heck even when I turn to this thing I am lucky when I get one reply back from people.
Same thing with emails and stuff, I hardly ever get emails from people.. and its like what the heck is the point on checking my email anymore.
It just makes me want to run away.
I don’t think I did anything to piss people off but maybe I did. who the hell knows. No one ever tells me anything anyways. I really truly do want to leave the country without telling anyone.Then if I felt lonely at least it would be my own fault I felt lonely, cuz I ran away somewhere where I didn’t know anyone.
My best friend got married and is now pregnant, I’m super happy for her, but now after being her bff for 7 years before she met him seeing each other at least 3 or 4 times a week now it is down to maybe once a week for a few hours if it works out. And before she got pregnant when they did go out I wouldn’t get invited because I’m not coupled up.
I had gotten really close to this guy while he was overseas in Afghanistan we talked on the phone and chatted on the net daily. I was there for him when everyone else just really wasn’t because he wasn’t physically around. I was a priority to him because he was one of mine. But now that he is home and resuming his life I’m having a hard time dealing with not being as high up on the list as I was for that year he was over there.
I’ve never had very good luck with having close friends most that i got close to ended up moving away and drifting off. Being a single mom makes it even harder to create and maintain a friendship since I always have my daughter unless she stays with Nana.
I don’t know though.
Am I overreacting?
It’s hard for me to tell because I spend so much time inside my head over analyzing, over thinking, and second guessing…
